i feel like sitting down with you guys, do nothing and stone all day~~

ive been having alot of weird dreams recently. and i usually dream of those people whom i see alot in school. on tuesday, i dreamt of clar and junyang. (cos i studied with junyang). on wednesday, i dreamt of jeryl(cos i studied with her) and the usuals. (somehow jeryl's sister and dingyao were in the dream too. oh and one hockey guy. but i remembered i was smiling to myself when i woke up). on thursday, i dreamt of my class clique. and the dream was super sad. i remember in the dream, i went home thinking that it was such a bad day. hahaha. but when i woke up, i was laughing at how dumb the dream was. yesterday, i dreamt of my sister cos i webcam-ed with her in the afternoon. i draemt of thing too! but i cant remember what was the dream about.

i think i should record all my dreams and combine them into a book. hahaha.

anyway, its offically 30 days from A levels!! seriously, im not at all positive. considering how i failed all my subjects for prelims again. how to be positive right? but no choice, just got to chiong all the way and let god decide if he wanna give me the As!! hmm must do more good deeds and pray more from now on.

ok i need to finish my homework by today but im still left with 1 chem paper and 1 gp paper 2 but im yawning away already!! ill update again on 30 nov. liberation day!!!!!

My project ended. I think i didn't do well. But i know i tried. So i am enjoying my holidays now! =) I will try harder for my next project which will start once school reopen. =(




















Random pictures of my model.



























Random image of my work.


I went back to malaysia then we had a family trip to Kukup! =) I think i am damn amazing. I gain 3kg in three days and i am not kidding. How can someone ever do that man?! =(
















The place we stayed at was nice and spacious! And i saw fireworks there, because is hari raya. =)





















Meet my new baby cousin, ziqing! =) She is damn cute!
















Look at how huge the prawn is~~ Is damn fresh! Damn nice! I feel hungry looking at this picture! No wonder i will gain 3kg in three days!

Everyone was so fascinated by the prawn and we started taking photos of it!




















Look at my maternal grandparents! HA!
















My cousin pre-celebrated his birthday there. =)





















Random: he insisted that he is a big fish that was caught! HAHA!

ok exams sucked as usual. birthday in the midst of exams is even worse. my dad woke me up at 12am just to webcam with my sis. i couldnt fall asleep after that!! terrible. was feeling super tired the next day. luckily i could still think.

havent been sleeping well lately. really its so bad. like im super tired but i just cant fall asleep. does anyone have any remedy for insomnia?

anyway, listen to this! when i first heard the accoustic version of poker face on 987, i thought it was abit weird. but the more i listen to it, the more i like it! =D

2 more papers and i can at least get a breather on wednesday.

i think i have no time to feel troubled
just continue working hard.......

ive been feeling all kinds of emotions. you can call that emo. And i think its a sign that my period is coming.

frustrated and loneliness are mainly what ive been feeling these days. With occasional feeling of homesick. The feeling is just horrible. I cant sleep at night. I think i think too much. I make myself nervous and so uptight that i cant calm myself down and get into deep sleep. i feel tired very easily nowadays. And i just cant settle down to study. Home is too comfy. At least my dad bought honey stars for me. Hope it will help me get pass a whole day of maths tomorrow.

Been wanting to call people to talk to, but i dont know who to call. So i always end up chucking my phone aside after scrolling the whole of contacts list. I wish im in USA now where ben and jerry's only cost 3 plus per tub. ):

i know i shouldnt be here now, but i need to calm myself down before the big day tomorrow. tomorrow is the start of PRELIMS. Can you believe it? It also means A's are coming real real soon. Im not positive at all, seriously. i dont know how to make myself study. Ive become so slack i cant believe myself.

Friday is econs and i barely started. I think im so screwed. Im supposed to calm myself down but i think im making things worse. Just hope buddha can bless me tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after the day after and for the whole prelims until the end of A's.......

I miss my sisterrrr. ):