today started off well but ended off bad. not very bad, but bad.

have you ever felt like youre a lousy friend cos seeing your friends sad and you cant do anything doesnt make you feel any better at all? yes im feeling it now. i guess nobody understands how much we want it. the passion for the game, the amount of time we put into trainings. we do not just want it to end in 3 A division games. i can understand it. cos after the first match, the tears just rolled down thinking that things may not be optimistic. thinking that our journey may just end in 3 games. i can imagine how sad the basketball girls are feeling now, especially clar. and also to the hockey guys, who have lost their first game and drew the second one. the third one is so crucial. seriously i dont know what i can do. words of encouragement may seem easy to say but it all boils down to themselves. i really hope they can pick themselves up. like immediately to face the match on wednesday. cos its so not the right time to give up now. ive seen them train so hard. (yes definitely harder than the girls) and how much they've improved. their team spirit. i really really hope they will get into the second round cos they totally deserve it.

so much about worrying about others. i can barely solve my own problems.

sucks to know that no matter how much i say i dont care, i still care.

i feel like eating oreo suddenly after looking at the oreo advertisement!

wah i feel so pig. today was spent sleeping and eating and watching tv. feels so shiok but so guilty. i shall do my work later.

anyways, we lost to vj 3-0. we didnt do too badly i guess. i think the team really persevered till the very end, especially the mids and defenders cos we practically didnt have any chance to attack. could see that they were very tired cos of the blazing sun. sis came down to support but yeah, she said its boring. haha.

went to Island Creamery after and she treated me to ice cream while she had mudpie. waited for her boyfriend to come pick us up and we went for dinner at Din Tai Fung at j8. (thank god for his car. but you bet i was such a BIG light bulb). so we had dinner and suddenly i got captain's message to say that theres no training today. so i raised my hand and said "yay no training!" then suddenly a waitress came over and asked if i need to add anything. oh man damn xia suay. hahahaha. she thought i wanted to order something cos previously i raised my hand very high up cos she couldnt see. LOL.

oh yay i can finally change my grip!! i promised to change my grip if we can into the next round. and yeah, we are in top 6 now. its gonna be so much tougher now cos the other teams are really strong. but we'll do our best (:

thing, hope youre coping well over there. know that its kinda stressful. if youre feeling stressed, go eat ice cream! haha. my best way of relieving stress (:

im tired. very tired. i cant wait for everything to be over so that i can just spend one day sleeping. i cant concentrate nowadays in class and my studies are going haywire. i dont like to give myself excuses like im tired cos i know everyone else is. sigh. i need to get back on track. but every other day ill be worrying about hockey and whatnots. SO STRESSED!!!

recently, my classmate's mum passed away. felt really sad for him. and i must say hes really, really brave. went down to his house for the wake yesterday after the match. he lost alot of weight but hes really strong. he told us the story of how his mum passed and i felt a tinge of nostalgia. its exactly how i felt one year ago. i know its gonna be hard on him to get over it, especially when its the closest person to him. and being the eldest son at home, and having to face A levels this year, i hope he will continue to stay strong, and get good results and make his mum proud.

sigh. i dont know why this year is full of unhappiness i feel like just giving up sometimes. really dont want to care about anything and just shut myself from the world.

tomorrows the big match against vjc. i hope we can play our best. or rather, I can play my best cos i played like shit yesterday. dont want to feel like ive let the whole team down again. i want to do my team proud. YES. CAN DO IT, MUST DO IT. WANT IT, GET IT.

I remember thing once said before, "Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game". Tomorrow's the big day. No doubt, I'm scared. But I'm going to tell myself I can, cause it's now or never.

WE CAN DO THIS. GO AJ HOCKEY!

My Crazy 18th

I think this post is like long overdue.

My beloved course mates pre celebrated my birthday for me on 6th April.

I was suppose to meet veron at 7pm to go for class. When i arrived, i walk past them without realising. I only saw Rasyid and he asked me why am i there and he said that he is meeting his friend and i didn't suspect anything. It is quite common to meet friends at Plaza Sing right? I always do that, so is understandable that i didn't know. Although i have extremely no idea how i manage to walk past them without realising.

The group was damn huge and attracting so much attention, i must be blind!

The plan was to make me play station games at dhoby ghaut area! I didn't expect myself to be 'prank', i thought only i prank people la! It was a crazy but memorable birthday celebration.

The game started when Miss Veronica Woon took out her camera and video after the class, i look unglam to the max, i swear!

Then she shuff me a card that states

' Dear Miss Eighteen, you are hereby cordially invited to participate in a journey whereby light is a source of friendship. Mission: your quest is to find 16 of your friends who will be hiding, given the clues, you're suppose to find them and it starts NOW!!'

On the card, there are doodles of them and their 'famous quote'! =)

First station: I was suppose to ask the whole class to sing me a birthday song because is my birthday. But everyone left before veron gave me the card. So is a bonus, i got my next station clue card!

It took me one million years to figure out where is that place. Anyway it was at Hotel Rendezvous with three of them hiding at the car park entrance. Second station: Dance for 1 minute at the car park entrance. I SWEAR THAT WAS DAMN BAD! AND THEY DIDNT GIVE ME ANY MUSIC!

The three innocent looking devils! Second station master starting from left wancheng, jazreel, jaclyn! Veron is my assistant of the day.

Anyway, I still completed my mission and got my second clue card. It was quite easy to guess the place! It was at The Cathay's Starbucks.

Rasyid was my station 3 station master. Third station: Ask 10 person to wish you happy birthday and 5 person to hug you.

I did complete my mission. I ask people in Starbucks and they helped me. Anyway, I hugged someone's boyfriend and someone's girlfriend without realising! While approaching the last table, there were three guys(around our age) at the table, i started talking and they stand up and say 'bye bye. bye bye.' Then i smile, then they sat down, one of the guy hug me, asked for my name, then sang birthday song for me and the whole Starbucks sing along. Franky speaking, it was really sweet for strangers to be so nice. =)
















Next station's clues!

Is at the arcade, with the triple S!
Fourth station: Challenge Sheraine in the machine thingy. It was damn easy!! HAHAHA! She only got 123 and i got 623. No kick man.

Next station is at the MRT station with the scandalous pair! Mission is to take photos with 18 different guys. When i approach someone, that guy look damn serious with a party hat and said' this is not the right time now' I almost laugh out loud. Please la! He was holding a party hat lor!













I think i look like i shamelessly run into THEIR picture when we are taking photo together la!


Proceed to next station!
















A lot of candles leading the way.

















Blowing off the candles...

Moving towards the end of the game.













With them and our cake.

Surprise for Justin too because his birthday is on the 11th and he thought he was only a station master.


























Cake cutting ceremony.















Presentation of birthday 'cards'!














The two birthday girls! He is our class princess, don't ask me why, i forgot.














Group shots!

These are the prizes i collected when i completed my stations. 18 lighters handmade by them to add on to my collection.

7th April

Spend working and after work played mahjong with albert and his friends. =)

8th April

My ex colleague came down to lunch with me and pass me my present. My colleague bought cake from Rive for me and the security guard wish me happy birthday because he saw my IC. Watched Shinjuku Incident after work with Cheng, HK and SM, it was a bloody show! Is not very good for a birthday. *nod head* Came home with HK and he gave me 'flowers' at 11.59pm before the end of my birthday because he promise to appear at my door step at 12.01am to pass me flowers but he didn't. LOL.

9th April

The usuals celebrated for me. =) No pictures of me because is with shirlynn. i look damn round in all the photos. =(

BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THAT WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THAT WERE THERE FOR ME TO CELEBRATE WITH ME PHYSICALLY OR SPIRITUALLY! =)

*i tried my best to make it look as neat as possible. blogger is irritating!

theres this song that was quite popular some time ago. its called nobody by wondergirls.
look at this video. its the original version

AND LOOK AT THIS!!! the version by wonderbabies!! DAMN CUTE AND FUNNY!!!


HAHHAHA TOTALLY LAUGH OUT LOUD

i cant help it but feel worried for next week's match especially when i know im not prepared at all. supposedly last pitch training yesterday and i certainly didnt perform up to standard. nothing but pissed with myself. cant even stop the ball properly. time is running out and im damn freaking scared. i need some morale booster.

havent been paying attention in class lately. cant concentrate. and it sucks. i still have so much work undone i need to start mugging tomorrow. i dont know how im going to study for chem spa on thursday when monday to wednesday will be spent on hockey.

ARGH STRESSED!!!!!!!!!

i have alot of work undone but i dont feel like doing it today cos i want to give myself a break.

today is a holiday cos yesterday had school funfair which was fun! except that it ended badly but nonetheless, its alright now. so i happily woke up at 10 today. had breakfast/lunch while watching a few episodes of hong kong serial. then went to collect my skirt which i sent for alteration. came home, showered and prepared, then off i went to town!! feels so good to be shopping and it doesnt matter that im alone cos i can do things slowly as i like. (: walked quite abit until i had blisters then i decided to come home early. but stil, i dont feel like doing work.

yesterday's family day was ok. was quite excited since saturday and was glad that it was quite fun!! thanks ziyu and youwen for coming down to support even though you all didnt buy anything from my stall. HAHA. and my hockey mate got dunked!!!!! hohoho. so fun. was desperately trying to clear the coupons so just anyhow bought food.

tomorrow is the start of another boring school week but friday is a holiday again!!!!

7 more days to Adivs. =O