an ex AJC-ian came back to talk during the careers and scholarship fair today. her talk was inspiring and moving. she talked about her life. real life experiences. people that she met. how she travelled to so many places since the age of 16. how she've seen the vulnerable side of people. how these people made her learn. how circumstances changed her. her life till this point is so exciting and enriching. admire how she can look at life so simply. make me thought of this phrase which ive seen somewhere last time "life is simple. humans complicate it." how true. really, there are times where i think of how people can always be so happy-go-lucky. i figured that its not that they have no problems, but they choose not to think of them. i must learn. and i really feel like taking up voluntary work next time!!

and i really have no idea what to take in uni! always thought i will take business or accountancy(mainly 'cos my sis takes it). after listening to the talk today about banking and finance, i realise i really have no interest at all! it seems so scary. i dont even know about a single thing about banking and finance. my dad say can learn. thats true. but i got no interest how! feel like taking sales and marketing but he say it'll be stressful next time. like my mum's job. cos have to meet sales target and all. and tourism!! no public holidays!! HOW?!?! just let me meet a rich guy. hahaha.

my dad is so cute. was messaging him today about plans next friday. he was asking what we should do next friday after lunch. i said we can watch movie since its not the eve of public hols and its the normal price. and he replied "so boring, watch movie..we r young ppl, how abt bowling or ice skating haha" FAINTS!

people come and go. still trying to learn.

my year 2 project officially starts today. two modules going on now. i feel tired just thinking about the work load. =( but i really want to work hard and do well. slap me if i am not doing that.

because my freaking lecturer extended our module so i have class from 9am to 9pm tomorrow. extremely annoyed. any solutions to dark eye circles other than getting more sleep??

i can't emphasize on how much i hate group work. it affects relationships. make people feel guilty. have to compromise with group mates' schedule and working style.

'some people can only be friends and some people can only be group mates. that is how things work.' quoted from my kor kor.

i don't want to be the one that is being left out. is sad when you are being left out and forgotten. =( i don't think is a nice feeling. but nobody should be blame, nobody like to work with people they don't like and everyone wants to do well. that is just how things work right?

my brother feel that maybe i am too demanding thats why i complain and feel upset when i do group work.

put yourself in my shoe. if your group mate don't send in her work punctually, don't reply your message when you text her, hang up your phone when you call her and send in her portion of work 2 days late, is it wrong to feel irritated? (we are not even in the same course, won't you feel paiseh to be so irresponsible to someone you are not close to and barely know you for a month) AND she told me she wanted an A for this group work. -__-

receiving a compilation done that your group mate claims that can be send for submission with 4 different fonts in the report and many many different font size, is it wrong to feel annoyed? how difficult is it when technology is so advance that all you need to do is select all and change the fonts?

so am i too demanding? =(

school's the same everyday. waking up early in the morning, get to school take temperature, have lessons, home, nap, do homework. and the routine continues everyday and finally friday comes and i scream Thank God It's Friday!

seriously, school's been too draining for all of us. the never ending amount of work to do. don't even have time to do revision!! and im really scared. (considering the fact that i studied and still got such shit results for mid years). but i got to press on!!! like 4 more months to As and its over!! cant wait!! ok i just got the motivation. i shall go study now.

oh yah. played hockey yesterday and today and it felt damn good though skills became rusty. and i got caught for playing in school uniform and have to write a 200 words essay. -_- sian.

i didnt expect it to come so hard on me.

i studied. i spent the whole holidays studying. waking up at 8 everyday. study for more than 12 hours everyday. just to get 2 U.

i know i was screwed during the exam period. but i just told myself to just give it a try since ive studied so hard. the moment before i stepped into the hall for any papers, i know im not gonna make it. im not confident for any paper, not even for econs. but still, i tried to calm myself down, just hoping to do the best for every paper. i thought i was able to at least pass chem. and all i get was a U.

sometimes i really regret not putting in enough effort for last year. but its all too late to say now right? ive only got 2 months to get everything right on track.

sometimes the amount of effort we put in just dont amount to what we get, isnt it?

just leave me alone.