lalalalaboom!

im feeling very lousy now cos i hate myself for not studying hard during jc. Seriously ive never had felt so regretful in my life before for doing/not doing something. But this whole a level thingy has been bugging me since the day the results was released and i think its gonna continue to bother me. It's not that i cant accept reality but i just feel very upset i want to vent it out. Im very vexed over the interview next week i really dont know what to do and what to wear. I hate myself for not being born smart and not getting all As so i can just happily wait for schools to offer me. I dont wanna get into SMU but NUS and NTU havent contacted me so far and im really worried. I just wanna do my best for the SMU interview so at least i have something to fall back on. It just sucksssss. recently ive also been thinking whether to pursue hr or banking and finance. i dont like it when i have to make decisions cos im afraid ill regret in future. my life very much sucks now. i want to quittttt. sighhhhhh.