I suddenly feel like blogging. Though school has not been too hard on me, I still find myself feeling down recently. Or maybe that's the reason. It makes me miss everyone. Home, my parents, sisters, bro, my grandma, Heang and of course you guys. I realized so many things have changed in a year and a half's time. So many things became unfamiliar to me when I first came over last April. There are certain things I wish so much I can share but I don't know how to. And that just makes me miss everything and everyone even more.

Imagine the new people and new environment we all have to get used to, sometimes it changes too drastically I wonder what happened to the old familiar ones and I think about it sometimes and I get emo........ like this :(

Shir's online now and I quote her PM, it's not the time to feel this way. It applies to me too but I think there should never be a time to feel this way. Which kind of sucks.

I hope I can keep myself busy enough to stop thinking.

17 days more to start of Adivs

no fried food/no soft drinks. more self-trainings. GOOO!!!!!!

update!

I just got my internet today!!! Yay, but I think I survived pretty okay without it.

School's been great for me! Well at least up till now... actually i think time past really really fast since my school started. I've only got 4 days of school a week (i'm free on thursdays), 18 hours per week........ and i just spotted 2 really, really, really, pretty asian girls in my class. The randomness aside, i'm dead serious!

But it's funny cos now when i'm in school, i see it differently from last year. You know when you're in a different position you just kinda see things not like how you saw it before. Last year i was doing foundations and when i walked into Uni i don't see it like i do now. There's a different feel and aura to it, hahaha. But i'm just trying to enjoy school, the work and everything else. i know it's gonna be tiring, but it's been not too bad so far, so yeah... at least now i've got a better picture of what i'm in for a.k.a what i've gotten myself into. Haa.

By the way i haven't gotten a picture of ziyu's look-alike yet, but i told her about you and she wanted to see ur picture too! And I also know another girl who looks like Elaine (in band and from 4N class, youwen should know her).. so i always hang out with them and it's quite weird cos it feels like i know them but i don't...

So how's everyone? Update, yo! i want to keep going on and on about me haha but i'm quite sleepy. it's 2.22am and i've got class at 9 tomorrow!

why is holiday only one week...):

friday to sunday had hockey camp which was good. it wasnt as tough as i thought and i guess mental strength really works alot. i constantly told myself to give in my best during the camp and not to slack. i think i performed better than usual, which was good for me. friday had match against PJ at CCAB. drew 1-1. wasnt as terrible as the NJ match but wasnt exactly good too. thereafter had dinner at macs at serene centre then returned back to school.

was told to wake up at 7 on saturday. but apparently we all woke up at 5 cos...

ms tay came into our bunk at 5, along with 2 other teachers. on the lights and blew the whistle and showed us this piece of paper. i woke up immediately cos i couldnt sleep well the whole night. gathered at the track. saiful tested our reaction time. changed from pumping position to crunches position to jumping jack position. then ran 3.2/4.8? around the school. all these were done when we havent wash up, which means we havent brush our teeth.

after the run, got back to school and washed up. packed up for pitch training. then had breakfast which was nasi lemak and hot milo. had match review. watched the first half of the much dreaded NJ match. after which, gathered at foyer before heading to NTU. but found out that our cones were lost. made saiful pissed. started with trigger ball at NTU, then warm up and drills. the sun was damn hot everybody were dying. the nasi lemak made my stomach damn uneasy. lavenniah sprained her ankle during 1v1. went back to school for lunch at 2. had match review on second half of NJ match. then it started to rain. went to MPH to play captains ball with a rugby(?!) and some very funny game. there are 2 teams competing. each team is supposed to send their representative(s) to sit in front of the black cloth. when the black cloth is pulled down, the fastest to say the name of the one at the opposite team wins. as usual, being hockey people, we came up with all kind of damn funny variations. especially the guys. super hilarious. then had PT. 4 rounds around lane 7/8. intervals of 200m within 50s(?) for 6 sets. push up, crunches, leg raise, squats. almost couldnt make it at that part. then had pizza for dinner went to wash up thereafter. had movie screening Chak De India in the guys match review room. fell asleep a few times but the movie was overall great. everyone got high at the last part where India, being an underdog, got into the World Cup Finals against Australia. after the movie, had reflections. then a few of us went to have cup noodles. slept at 2 and woke up at 6 on sunday. had breakfast then headed to CCAB for training. couldnt process saiful's instructions fast enough cos i was damn tired. had debrief after training then stayed on to play with some of them. then junyang came so i played with him for awhile. before i got hit by azfar's deflection at the mouth. i was damn worried my tooth will drop out, luckily it didnt. but was bleeding damn badly and there were blood stains on my shirt. super scary experience. thank god there was zhao and azfar there or else i dont know what to do. thanks to the girls and junyang for helping me too. had lunch after bathing at adam road food centre. didnt feel like eating so only had ice kachang. headed home and slept immediately cos i was afraid my dad would see my injury. sad that camp ended on a bad note for me but was glad that camp made me learn a few things. like never to take things for granted, how to work better as a team, how to motivate myself etc. all in all, CAMP WAS GREAT. =D

went to mug at coffeebean on monday. wasnt exactly productive but did a bit of homework. half the time was messaging saiful with sophial and his sms-es are totally lame to the max.

tuesday had math lecture in school, which was totally boring and i ended up doing my chem tutorial. then headed to macs for breakfast and mugged. then had training which sucked cos we had 2.4km run. after that was too lethargic to to anything. reaction was damn slow. my body totally took over my mind. sun was damn freaking hot and i just cant wait for training to end. worse was, there was still the killer triangle and we ran the whole field this time. then did trigger ball. went to j8 for bubble tea after training.

wednesday mugged at coffeebean which was totally unproductive. tried to do chem tutorial. got stucked so shifted to gp. dont understand the passages so decided to nap for awhile. woke up, tried to study econs, got restless and ended stoning. then talked to the girls and went home. ?!?! i didnt do any work at all!!!

thursday had training at NYP. totally tiring. muscle ached. hot sun. ulcer cos of the injury was hurting very badly. couldnt do anything right. sucks to the core.

friday had SL. was ok except the kids can get quite irritating at times. met sis for lunch then went home to bathe and change before meeting junyang for mugging at coffeebean. as usual, i got restless cos my ulcer was hurting damn badly. i cant even move my mouth to talk!! arghhhh. then headed to PS to meet aslam, ziyu and youwen. showed them all my ulcer as meeting gift. and thing, according to ziyu, i should webcam with you to show you my ulcer too. haha! ate at astons then chilled at starbucks.

saturday had Junior World Cup (JWC) technical officials course at Delta. super confusing of what we are supposed to do. after which headed to cathay to mug at starbucks. quite productive. then headed home to meet my sis for dinner/supper at the coffeeshop downstairs. ate prata and roti john. talked quite a bit. (: did i mention shes going US in august? i think im going to miss her so much. ):

and today is the last day of holiday. oh my god. look at how i spent my holiday. totally no fun at all. and homework still not done. ahhhhh!! ok im going to start on my work now. ):

The thought of being a retail and hospitality designer is so nice. But is damn hard to get there.

The blocks just get tougher and i just get weirder. I am like getting more and more immune to all the work load. Every single time when lecturers or my director speak to us about general(as in self-discipline, attitude etc) stuff, they will never ever forget to tell us 'designers don't have a life.' I think is so annoying, that phrase irritates my ear. Sometimes i feel like screaming very loudly into their face ' i do have a life!!!' Why their way of 'motivating' student is so weird? We won't work harder because they say that right? If we do, is like making us even more no-life? Or we suppose to look at it this way, since we already don't have a life, so we should make the best out of it and work even harder? ( i think i can easily achieve another 5000 words if i want to list every single thing that i really want to complain)

The reason for all the nonsense blabbered above is because today is a very bad day. I woke up late, gobble down my breakfast, realise i forget to bring my handphone, missed two bus 72 because is damn packed, fall asleep on the bus, missed my stop, when i start doing my work in the lab, the computer restart on its own, when i doing my work, the programme hang and i didn't save my work, when i want to print my still-have-room-for improvement work, the plotting room got the whole course in the room, went for lecture feeling very dissapointed with myself, assignment brief to let us know more assignments awaiting to buried me alive, lecturer extended the submission time by 3 hours because everyone can't print on time, i waited for 4 hours to print my work, i am late for the extended submission timing, rush off thinking that i am late, took a cab down and realised actually we only need to reach by 8pm and we can actually take train. MY DAY IS SOOOOO EXCITING AND FUN.

Another reason for everything above, i need to rant if not i will explode.

I miss you all and i swear i hate to have different school holidays timing. Whats the fun to have holidays when nobody is having it with you other than your schoolmate that you see everyday (from 9am to 11pm when we chiong assignment)?

Blog people. i want to know whats going on in your life.

i want to sleep now cos im so tired my eyes can close anytime. and theres a match tomorrow and i should rest early cos my flu havent fully recovered. but i need to at least finish three quarter of my chem revision cos theres a test on thursday and i will be reaching home late tomorrow due to friendly. will probably be too tired to study later.

friendly tomorrow with only 11. no substitues. no goalie. but im sure we can do it cos WE WANT TO WIN! yes yes yes. we can totally forget about breathing. forget about being substituted. JUST RUN!!! i havent mentioned my team has lots of injuries recently. which is really bad cos Adivs is just a month away. 2 fractured hands, one with stitch on the head. and many with leg/ankle injuries. im really worried for Adivs yet excited for it. hockey camp this friday to sunday. totally cant wait for it even though there will be madness fitness trainings. but im sure ill have lots of fun with the girls. =D

yesterday ziyu messaged me. hahaha. totally random. sorry i was too tired my eyes were closing or else i could have messaged you longer. we got to meet up soon!

i really hope i wont have lemons throwing at me again cos ive had enough of it. but you know, sometimes when shit happens, you know who are the ones who will always be there for you. and im glad for that. (:

this week have been terrible. was sick and skipped school on monday. and so i missed my physics spa. and also my 2.4 today. madness coughing and running/blocked nose accompanied me every day. not that i like them. it sucks totally cos i cant concentrate when doing things. and my sexy voice made my friends laugh at me.

but i need to thank my friends for contributing packets of tissue to me. not in any order. THANK YOU JANE, SOPHIAL, XIN YI, CHERYL, JOYCE.

and today ended badly but nonetheless, i want to thank people who are always there for me like, JANE, JERYL, JIAXIN and all others who made my day better.

ok now i shall go study. IM SO DEAD.

i finish my last day of block already. next week will be the start of my new block. it is actually quite sad since everyone is having holidays already and next week the school probably will be empty and most canteen will be closed, is very sad to do work in school next month because the school will look deserted and we will need to do assignment plus we will have no food when we are hungry.

i don't know why but i miss you all. =(

*my stupid fingers are damn painful due to bending of wires (is my previous assignment) and there are blisters on my hand. =(