i cant get to sleep even though i badly need some sleep. i never thought that i will have dark eye rings, but now i have. life sucks to the power of infinity. but what can i do? jump down the building and die meh. therefore, life still sucks no matter how much i rant.


the guys look so tall cos they were being retarded by jumping up and down before the shot was taken. so the outcome: edmund is the tallest even though hes considered short in class. and so many guys are taller than ruihong.




and blogger is being a bitch again. i cant upload anymore photos. see, told you life sucks.

eee im really angry. cant upload photos!!!! my class girls all tied french braid today. cos they were abit crazy. i didnt want to tie but they forced me too! even when i said i didnt wash my hair for 2 days, they die also want to tie for me! jane even said, "its ok, i didnt wash my hands too." *faints* then during p.e, we had couple dance. so my class girls all had the same hairstyle. then the teacher had to pair us. then another of my classmates said, "we looked like vietnam brides." HAHAHA!

haha i feel so happy now. cos clar just messaged me to tell me she miss me. haha. its a joy to know that someone bothers to message you when they miss you right? how often do we actually bother to tell someone we miss them/love them? anyway, my teacher showed us a video during mass civics today. and i liked it alot. the feeling is like the video that eugene and junyang did for me during my 15th birthday. go and have a look : www.findingjoymovie.com

oh our class was so sweet today. we wrote messages to encourage one another to do well during exams. hopefully we can all promote together! *pray hard* ill try to upload photos again when blogger stops being a bitch.

HAHAHAHA. my friend saw my msn pic with ziyu in it. and she said, "your friend quite pretty leh. her tan very nice." HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA. sorry i cannot stop laughing. its even funnier than my "its free between me and you." right right ziyu? HAHAHHAHA. and stupid blogger dont let me post photos. im angry and i dont want to blog about friday and saturday already.

the worse way to waste time is to be locked out of house. i left school almost immediately after lessons ended at 2.15. was walking home from j8 and i was thinking that i could nap probably for an hour or so before i start memorising for econs test. the thought of sleeping just made me so happy. but as i was climbing the stairs, i couldnt find my keys. then i was like, shit. got so suay or not. then damn it, really cant find. end up calling my sister but her lessons only end at 7.30. and the earliest my mum could come home was 6.30. and it was 3 at that time! super sian. then i sat at the void deck. studied econs. everytime people walk pass will look at me. then i fell asleep. woke up. study again. then i got so bored i walked to the market to buy food to eat. i was so irritated. so there goes my diet plan again. sigh sigh sigh.

theres so much to do tonight. but i dont feel like doing. some of my classmates are going to play badminton tomorrow. i dont know if i can go cos ive got lessons packed all the way. with 1 hour break in between for me to do chem remedial homework. SHITTT. but i really want to playyyyyyyyyyy. ):

going for singapore fireworks festival tomorrow. 30 more days to promos. FREAKKKK.

today i went to school, attended one lesson and went home. cos i was having gastric. but..i ate breakfast. even tried to drink hot milo to see if it'll be better. but it was still pain. so i went to the office to get early leave form. and the *$@#!$* VP scolded me for not taking care of my health instead of asking if i was ok when i was in pain. then i hurried home. i felt like i could faint anytime cos the pain was excruciating. for a moment, i was afraid it'll be apendicitis. went home, saw that the medicine expires on 8/2008. dont know if its still edible not. but august havent end. so should be can. hurry ate the medicine and went to sleep. woke up, no more pain. not appendicitis. heng ah.

BUT. now my stomach having the same feeling again! and its getting more and more pain. WILL I DIE SOON? =/

CONGRATS SINGAPORE! YAY like finally a medal after 40 years! it was a good fight at the finals but the China Chinese were really good. oh well. we should be contented! =D

watched Money No Enough 2 today. wasnt really good. it wasnt very funny. didnt really relate to me. but it did make me tear ALOT. always hit my soft spot.

so focused on watching the olympics i dont feel like doing my work. and my eyes feel so sore from all the crying i want to sleep now. tomorrow is a longgggggg day. ):

when watching Belgium vs Italy match earlier on..

me: wah belgium guys all damn handsome leh. no wonder belgium chocolate also so nice.
a few seconds later, tv focused on a black guy
sis: do you like dark chocolate too?

i feel like going to the airport now. sucky day except that theres a little progress in my diet. lost one kg but sis insists theres something wrong with the weighing machine. but i dont care. i insist i did lose weight. thats the only thing to motivate me. diet sucksssssss.

theres so much to do this weekend. i want to die.

i dreamt of the usuals last night!!!! now i believe in "ri you suo si, ye you suo meng"! cos ive been thinking alot about them lately. wanted to arrange an outing or something. then all the "promos in 5 weeks time" and "DO YOU WANT TO RETAIN???" pop up. sigh sigh sigh. ive been using the computer alot lately. but that doesnt mean i study. i spend the time sleeping! thats equally bad. im so sad and disappointed, diet plan failed terribly. jane didnt even realised i was dieting!! ok that means i eat alot. RAHHHH.

anyway, back to the dream. the dream felt quite real, except that we were at my classamate's condo. but she appeared for awhile only. then the scene consisted of shawn, jeryl, eric and me i think. the rest were like just a group of black shadows around us (eee, sounds scary). basically, cant see their faces but theres just a big group of people there lah. i think i was in a kitchen and suddenly they saw me and walked towards me. then while walking towards me, they walked passed a fountain. like, a fountain indoors?!?! abit weird lah. then i cant really remember what happened after that. i woke up in the middle of the night to answer nature's call, then i was thinkig, since its such a sweet dream, maybe i should write down. but you know, normally when you wake up in the middle of the night. you'll be so blur that once you thought of something, the next second you'll forget it. yeah, so i forgot and continue walking towards my bed and SLEEP.

then true enough, this morning i woke up and i forgot. but i remembered i dreamt of jane too. maybe she will dream of me tonight cos today she attended a lesson by me: THE ART OF SHAKING LEG. seriously, i hate people who shake their leg. its so irritating. for girls, its so unglam. the action is so ugly and for guys, it feels so uncivilised!! and girls wont like it lorrr. nobody trust me. next time they will thank me for telling them not to shake their legs man.

anyway, jane and I spent half the time during chem lecture discussing about people who shake legs and people who dont. the conclusion: shake leg = bad people. dont shake leg = good people. haha. but we got listen to what the lecturer was talking lor. cos today is my tutor lecturing. then the last part damn funny. the bell ring then she kan chiong and she stumbled then me and jane laughed damn loudly, people from 2nd and 3rd row below us turned back to look.

had 2 hours before spa. a few of us went to the canteen to watch the olympics. got one very cute japan gymnast fell down!! so poor thing. then got another guy from dont know what country fell down too. and its quite funny seeing people crowding around the tv during breaks. some even scream or cheer when people are abou to score or win. like suddenly you will hear a roar when you are eating.

then had chem spa and it sucks man. even though i knew how to do the calculations and the sources of error but i cant weight the stupid spirit lamp! its like a chicken essence bottle with alcohol inside. so we were suppose to take the weight before and after we burn it. and after i burn it, the mass became heavier!!! when its supposed to be lighter. so i came up with some stupid numbers myself. and i stupidly so touch the soot. so my hands became black.

ok i realise i keep rambling and rambling. time to do homework. i think tomorrow will suck. but nevermind, i shall still think positively. YAY! i look forward to tomorrow!

have you thought of how you will die one day? ive thought of that today.
i think i will die of stomach cancer or gastric cancer(is there such a thing?) or some sort. CHOY LAH. but then i really think so man.

i think i eat too much chilli everyday and acidic stuffs. today i was eating yong tau fu and jane said my soup very qiang bi. and my stomach hurts after drinking that bowl of soup. and i ate 3 oranges today!!!! and my stomach hurts again after eating them. even though i ate proper food before eating orange. OH MAN. i dont want to be like my mum. she has a very weak stomach. sometimes when she eat too much, she will puke immediately after eating. and i take after her cos she likes to eat chilli too. BUT NO CHILLI, NO LIFE YOU KNOW?!?!?

i need to control my diet more. BE MORE STRICT. my aunt is so disciplined lah. she drinks fruit juices and eat salad everyday. that day i told my dad that coffeeshops and food places should cater more to people on diet. cos i always have nothing to eat. they should sell fresh fruit juices, porridges, soups etc. then he say, people on diet shouldnt eat.

anyway, my mum cooked 2 pots of soups that can last me for this whole week. so ive been drinking soup every dinner and eating vege. i wonder how long this diet can last me.

training tomorrow. ):

spent the whole of yesterday slacking. family bonding time!! yay everything is worth it just to spend time with family righttt. its like back to the old times again. it could be better if the tickets for Money Not Enough 2 were not sold out. hmmph. now we have to wait till next saturday.

friday's national day celebration was alright. jeryl danced well!!! as usual. the other performance were good too. the Connect Singapore thingy was quite lame. but my class amused ourselves and had fun, so not too bad. (: watched the Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony. man, it was damn nice. totally spectacular. China sure did themselves proud. i messaged Chu Jun and she said, "its damn fucking nice. im so proud of China!" WOAHHHH.

i just came back not long ago from my grandma's place. my diet plan is ruined as usual. sucksss. tomorrow going study with youwen then go run with ziyu!!! =D

i feel like watching dark knight even though it has been out for quite long and i think everybody except me has watched it. i think Joker is damn scary!

me, with no sense of urgency at all, was sitting at Dome this afternoon, drinking my Mocha Espresski and reading 8 days where i saw Joker's picture. it looks damn scary even though my sister say it doesnt. like for the first time im scared of something shes not scared of. but the photo makes me wanna watch dark knight!!

sigh sigh sigh. promos in 5 more weeks. i got a feeling im going to retain. FREAKKKKKK. im gong to mug damn hard after hockey ends next week. and i hate the feeling that ive broken my dad's trust on me cos he left me all alone to handle my studies and i gave him shit results. and now, he have to ask me every now and then hows school. that. feeling. is. so. sucky.

national day celebration tomorrow. totally not looking forward to it. cos ive got chemistry remedial at 4.15. ))))): im going to bring spongebob cap tomorrow. see which brave soul wants to wear it. heheh!

today i was on my way to school and i saw my sec 1 eyecandy on the train. HAHA! then i immediately thought of what you girls said "YOU BU SHI HEB SHUAI!!!" i can totally remember thing's tone. and i started smiling to myself. man i miss thing!!

i hope i have the motivation and perserverence i used to have. ITS ALL GONE!!! ):

taken on friday's math lecture

been eating alot these few days cos ive been experiencing a whole lot of emotions. found myself unknowingly appearing at one place eating every time. haha. tried several new stuff that ive been wanting to eat since a long time ago.

so for the past few days, i ate: Casuarina Prata, Icekimo ice cream, Raffles Hotel chinese restaurant, Korean BBQ at East Coast, Mad Jack Cafe, Island Creamery.

i think my standard for ice cream has increased alot. Icekimo's Belgium Chocolate + Teh Tarik + Waffles wasnt exactly satisfying, neither was Island Creamery's Mudpie. On the contrary, some homemade ice cream bought by my aunt was enough to keep my mouth shut but only go "hmmm!" all the time. its comparable to B&J's.

Raffles Hotel's chinese restaurant was good, as usual. the decor has changed. nonetheless, quality of food was superb. the price of the food makes my jaw drop. i want to marry a rich husband!! or be a successful career woman like my aunt. (:

Mad Jack Cafe was impromptu. but i think the food was quite good. would definitely patronise again if i happen to be at that area. its quite inaccessible lah.

ok im done with my food report. haha. DETOX STARTS TOMORROW! *Jane is sick of hearing this*

oh oh, forgot to mention, xiao qiang came to visit us when i was dating with
Walt Disney and my other group members were playing pool. its amazing how a small creature can catch all of us off guard. even Bryan and Leon were scared! HAHA. ultimate irritant. anyway, I LIKE MY PW GROUP! even though PW sucks. and we have all decided to go celebrate after OP! oh yay! (:

LOOK ALIKE MEH!!!!

I HATE MSN VIDEO CALL! its so lag! just video call-ed with lything. who is supposed to be studying at ian's and brandon's house. but apparently, they are all slacking. i saw brandon, joey and randy and one girl over the webcam.
THING AH! study hard for 2 more days!! man i miss her. ):

wanted to blog about the scholarhsip ceremony but im too lazy. plus the pictures are not in the laptop.

i wasted whole of my weekend away. im a horrible girl. >(

and for your info, i wasnt really emo in my previous post. nobody will say they are emo when they are really emo. and my msn personal message is trying to be sarcastic. a matter of fact, LIFE SUCKS

today is a bad day. i woke up at 6.50. didnt want to come to school but dad said mum is still at home. so i thought she could send me to school. who knows she was late too. so i had to take a cab to school. and the cab fare amounted to 8.40 when the school is so near my house. and i have to pay myself. ):

and i totally forgot theres the N6 cluster dance event at St Nicks today, until i heard the announcement. if i didnt come to school, i wouldnt have to pay the 8.40 cab fare and i dont need to go for that event and i can get to skip
P.E. freak. then after the event ended, wanted to go out but none was free. everyone seems to have their plans. so i went home being a loner. then the bus went pass thing's house then i started to miss thing. then came home, watch tv and started to miss grandpa. EMOOOOOO.

i shall go to sleep now and wake up later to study. going to attend sis's scholarship prize giving ceremony tomorrow.

went back to NY yesterday. ate my favourite mixed veg rice at NY! YUMMY! the school seems empty coss j2s were having lessons and j1s were having assembly. ):

then went back to Zhonghua to collect SGC. much have changed. the school is filled with lots and lots and lots of art pieces now. like every 2 steps you walk, there'll be an art piece. and student centre has now become alumni singing room. like ?!?! o.O and the indoor stadium is so big!!! though its not done yet. and dance studio has got new flooring and bars. library has I MAC!!! LIKE WTH RIGHT! we get all the shit when we were around man. and the juniors are so privillege. i think they are trying to uphold their band 1 image. oh oh. the canteen closes so early nowadays! many stalls have already closed at 3!!! didnt get to eat fishball noodles. ))): and the school feels so empty, though detention area is filled with people. and the new VP look like some coffeeshop uncle. =/ i so miss Zhonghua man. though it feels kind of foreign now with all the changes.

OH! we saw a bird flying towards the art gallery. and it banged against the glass door and dropped to the ground. it was struggling to get up and a few of us crowd around and went "oh my god!!! so poor thing!! how ah what should we do ah?" then suddenly, it overturned and started flying and it flew under my skirt!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!! DAMN FREAKING SCARY!!! i got a shock man!! O.O

went opposite to have lunch/teabreak/dinner. there's a N&B there now!! the stationary shop is gone and is replaced with N&B. and there's no more tom yum and the person ask us want to eat toast or not?!?!?

i told my dad that the tv in my room is spoilt. he say then i shouldnt watch tv and spend the time studying. i hate it when he assumes i dont study. then i went to his room, switch on the tv and realise the tv is spoilt too. i think he secretly did something. >( tomorrow is a long day. so is friday. ):

man. super duper tired right now. think i used too much energy in the day.

anyhows, went for dinner with the usuals just now! it was actually full attendance but eric couldnt make it! ): so it was left with the 9 of us.

finally settled for food court. -_- i was messaging ziyu in the day and asking her what we are eating. and i told her worse come to worse, eat food court. cos eugene, being a canoeist, cannot eat fried food. he was broke too. aslam has HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE OH MY GOD. youwen wants to eat jap food and lynette wants air con. so troublesome these people. we had fun anyways. its the company that matters right.

went to have Andersen's ice cream after that. it was much fun with them around. i finally saw shawn after dont know how many months. caught up with one another abit. though most of the time was just laughing and suan-ing each other.



ANYWAY MY SISTER GOT a $10,000 SCHOLARSHIP!! OH MY GOD. and its not like what stupid edusave awards. its from Ngee Ann Kong Si. and i think its not an easy thing. have to go through interview and all. and she didnt really have an outstanding portfolio so it was a pleasant surprise for the whole family. including her. CONGRATS MAN! (: