im feeling very lousy now cos i hate myself for not studying hard during jc. Seriously ive never had felt so regretful in my life before for doing/not doing something. But this whole a level thingy has been bugging me since the day the results was released and i think its gonna continue to bother me. It's not that i cant accept reality but i just feel very upset i want to vent it out. Im very vexed over the interview next week i really dont know what to do and what to wear. I hate myself for not being born smart and not getting all As so i can just happily wait for schools to offer me. I dont wanna get into SMU but NUS and NTU havent contacted me so far and im really worried. I just wanna do my best for the SMU interview so at least i have something to fall back on. It just sucksssss. recently ive also been thinking whether to pursue hr or banking and finance. i dont like it when i have to make decisions cos im afraid ill regret in future. my life very much sucks now. i want to quittttt. sighhhhhh.

yay played hockey today. feel so shuang to be perspiring again. yet am totally sad that im old and unfit and saiful said i was disappointing today. ): played another match against the juniors. their A divs are starting next week. i really really wanna take off to see their matches but i have so much things to do in office i cant afford to take so many leave. i hope results wont be coming out next friday. sigh. really dont know what to do after results are out.

work has been ok. though there were days when i feel really frustrated. and i really dont like office politics. maybe i wanna quit earlier. but ill have to work till at least june. i wanna go travel!!! ):

ok i dont think ill update anytime soon cos theres nothing for me to update. like jeryl said, my life revolves around work now. ):

extremely tired. days have been a rush recently. from monday to friday, ill be working. work's boring as usual. except that ive got some really nice and funny colleagues. weekends are usually reserved for driving lessons and meeting up with people. which makes my days even more rush. which makes me EVEN MORE TIRED.

went to Universal Studios Singapore stress test yesterday. its a preview to staff. seriously i was very impressed with what i saw. maybe cos i havent been to the real universal studios in LA. but i would say, the USS will definitely boost our tourism. even though many of the rides werent open yet (which really is a pity), it was still damn fun. people in the park are really friendly i hope they keep up with this kind of standard and the visitors will definitely be very pleased.

i cant mention too much about the rides, but for tourists coming to singapore, i think visiting USS is a MUST (especially when they have so much to spend).
for locals, when youre bored of doing the usuals, why not spend a little more to go visit our very own universal studios. im sure you'll be as impressed as i am. (:

saturday's class bbq at Ser Kiat's house was a huge success i would say. turn out rate was high and i had fun. played, chatted and ate. great time spent. (:

back to work again today. monday blues. especially after a day of fun at USS yesterday. the topic of the day was definitely the stress test. everyone were talking about it. had quite a bit to do today so time passed pretty fast. i hope everyday will be as eventful as today!

chinese new year is coming. havent start diet!!!!! DIEEEEEE.

i was pissed about work and someone at work but im slowly trying to calm myself down and hopefully get to bed soon cos someone is just not worth my energy and time getting angry with.

you know we always write in essays about how the real life is different from school life and im slowly feeling it. since i cant return to the past, the more ill work harder towards being a rich tai tai.

DAMN THAT BITCH.

i wanted to post some pictures but the file sizes are too large.

im excited for the bangkok trip!! singapore's too boring. theres nothing to do. in need of a getaway!

and sis is coming back soon!

i need to stop procrastinating and hurry finish my data entry stuff. zzz.

the longest cold war ever has ended! yayyyy.

went to stayover at my grandma's house yesterday to make tang yuan! so sad theres no red ones this year cos the colouring has expired. ):

now that i can go out, theres actually nothing much for me to do. but im excited about next week! picnic at marina barrage! hopefully it wont rain and hope my new cam takes nice photos! i quite like the new cam except its too clear it shows my chicken pox scars. ):

wow. cousin's ROM next week. time pass so fast, soon it'll be my sis's turn! hahaha.

there's always the angel and devil conversation in my mind.
should i talk to him?
angel: yeah you should. hes your dad! just give in to him.
devil: no you shouldn't relent. you're not at fault. be firm!

zzzzzz.

bored bored bored. TO THE MAX!!! and i finished watching You're Beautiful. haha funny show. the characters damn cute. but the ending at a concert?! the fans' screaming spoilt it lah. NOW I GOT NO MORE SHOWS TO WATCH. ARGHHHHH. dont feel like watching IRIS yet. hai pai tian xin first episode so boringgg. sighhh.

i may not be going prom already, looking at the rate the chicken pox on my face peels. damn. ive been home for 2 and a half weeks already. except going for exams. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW BORED I AM?! im going crazy seriously. ARGHHHH.

and my insomnia isnt helping me lah. i sleep so little and the number of hours im awake takes up 3/4 of the day. i cant even find anything to do to entertain myself.

CHICKEN POX PEEL PLEASEEEEEEEEE.

the last thing a person having chicken pox should do is to look at food blogs. but then again, im sooooo bored at home i had nothing to do but to blog hop. and the second last thing i would do, is to blog. does this explain how bored am i?

cant wait to get out of the house. idiot chicken pox, im giving you one more week to recover. you better get lost after one week.

i feel like sitting down with you guys, do nothing and stone all day~~

ive been having alot of weird dreams recently. and i usually dream of those people whom i see alot in school. on tuesday, i dreamt of clar and junyang. (cos i studied with junyang). on wednesday, i dreamt of jeryl(cos i studied with her) and the usuals. (somehow jeryl's sister and dingyao were in the dream too. oh and one hockey guy. but i remembered i was smiling to myself when i woke up). on thursday, i dreamt of my class clique. and the dream was super sad. i remember in the dream, i went home thinking that it was such a bad day. hahaha. but when i woke up, i was laughing at how dumb the dream was. yesterday, i dreamt of my sister cos i webcam-ed with her in the afternoon. i draemt of thing too! but i cant remember what was the dream about.

i think i should record all my dreams and combine them into a book. hahaha.

anyway, its offically 30 days from A levels!! seriously, im not at all positive. considering how i failed all my subjects for prelims again. how to be positive right? but no choice, just got to chiong all the way and let god decide if he wanna give me the As!! hmm must do more good deeds and pray more from now on.

ok i need to finish my homework by today but im still left with 1 chem paper and 1 gp paper 2 but im yawning away already!! ill update again on 30 nov. liberation day!!!!!

My project ended. I think i didn't do well. But i know i tried. So i am enjoying my holidays now! =) I will try harder for my next project which will start once school reopen. =(




















Random pictures of my model.



























Random image of my work.


I went back to malaysia then we had a family trip to Kukup! =) I think i am damn amazing. I gain 3kg in three days and i am not kidding. How can someone ever do that man?! =(
















The place we stayed at was nice and spacious! And i saw fireworks there, because is hari raya. =)





















Meet my new baby cousin, ziqing! =) She is damn cute!
















Look at how huge the prawn is~~ Is damn fresh! Damn nice! I feel hungry looking at this picture! No wonder i will gain 3kg in three days!

Everyone was so fascinated by the prawn and we started taking photos of it!




















Look at my maternal grandparents! HA!
















My cousin pre-celebrated his birthday there. =)





















Random: he insisted that he is a big fish that was caught! HAHA!

ok exams sucked as usual. birthday in the midst of exams is even worse. my dad woke me up at 12am just to webcam with my sis. i couldnt fall asleep after that!! terrible. was feeling super tired the next day. luckily i could still think.

havent been sleeping well lately. really its so bad. like im super tired but i just cant fall asleep. does anyone have any remedy for insomnia?

anyway, listen to this! when i first heard the accoustic version of poker face on 987, i thought it was abit weird. but the more i listen to it, the more i like it! =D

2 more papers and i can at least get a breather on wednesday.

i think i have no time to feel troubled
just continue working hard.......

ive been feeling all kinds of emotions. you can call that emo. And i think its a sign that my period is coming.

frustrated and loneliness are mainly what ive been feeling these days. With occasional feeling of homesick. The feeling is just horrible. I cant sleep at night. I think i think too much. I make myself nervous and so uptight that i cant calm myself down and get into deep sleep. i feel tired very easily nowadays. And i just cant settle down to study. Home is too comfy. At least my dad bought honey stars for me. Hope it will help me get pass a whole day of maths tomorrow.

Been wanting to call people to talk to, but i dont know who to call. So i always end up chucking my phone aside after scrolling the whole of contacts list. I wish im in USA now where ben and jerry's only cost 3 plus per tub. ):

i know i shouldnt be here now, but i need to calm myself down before the big day tomorrow. tomorrow is the start of PRELIMS. Can you believe it? It also means A's are coming real real soon. Im not positive at all, seriously. i dont know how to make myself study. Ive become so slack i cant believe myself.

Friday is econs and i barely started. I think im so screwed. Im supposed to calm myself down but i think im making things worse. Just hope buddha can bless me tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after the day after and for the whole prelims until the end of A's.......

I miss my sisterrrr. ):

ok i decided to post if time permits. just to update my sis whats happening over here. since i hardly see her online due to time difference.

my brain was dead after the 1h 15 min chem test, which i dont know how to do. and the 2 h 15 min econs test, which i stunned after looking at the 3 essays. im quite amazed how i can crap so much. haha. but at least i didnt sit there for 2h 15 min and do nothing.

wanted to nap when i reached home but turns out that i K.O-ed all the way till this morning. which explains why im up early. i missed 2 shows!!! (though ive watched them before) and i wasted my time on sleeping instead of studying. MAN!!!

ok i will stay back in school to study today to prevent myself from sleeping at home. theres soccer for p.e later! and gp timed prac. ):

my rheumatism have been acting alot lately. ill feel the pain even when air con room sometimes. i know i sound like an old lady. but seriously, thats the effect of bathing late. dont know how to survive when im old. ): and my backaches. ): effect of playing hockey.

ok gotta go prepare for school now!

missing my sister when shes barely gone for 24 hours. in fact i was thinking of her the whole day! ok shes reaching new york in 3 hours. and ill only see her 5 months later. )))):

Is almost 3am. I am seriously lack of sleep due to this week's 'inhuman' school work schedule. I think i really have no life!

Conversation between veron and ziyu.
v: Why you don't look tired? I thought you sleep later than me? How many hours you sleep?
z: Eh. Around5 hours?
v: Huh? How come? What time you sleep?
z: I sleep at 4plus am
v: Then where got 5 hours?
z: I wake up at 7am, so two hours plus of sleep, the moment i board the bus i sleep, so travelling time to and fro, 2 hours plus, so got 5 hours lor.
v: WTH~!
z: Shit! I think i am damn pathetic. Sleep on the bus also calculate!

i am looking forward to weekend. i need sleep. i think i stay in my bed for less than 12hours for the past 4 days. =(

my friend show us this and we can somehow relate to it:

YOU KNOW YOURE AN ARCHITECTURE STUDENT WHEN....

...you know the janitors by name. [NYEAH, SEE THEM ALOT INSTEAD.]

...your roommates say "good morning," and you reply "good night."

...you carry a toothbrush in your backpack.

...someone asks you for your phone number and you give them the studios.

...you start paying rent for your desk space in studio.

...You total up 3 meals of the day to your breakfast.

...'Red Bull' is you favorite drink. [ I'LL STOCK UP THE RED BULL WHENEVER SUBMISSION IS NEARING.]

...you ask Santa Clause for architecture supplies.

...you ask Santa Clause for a sleeping bag.

...after all of your expenses, you can't afford to pay attention

...you have 3 or more cups of double shot coffee espressos in one night
[IF IM SICK AND TIRED OF REDBULL, BUT SOMETIMES, IT DONT WORK ANYMORE ON ME]

...you hear the same song on the radio 3 or more times in one night.

... You know the different taste between UHU and Pritt glue

... You can stay alive without sunlight, communicate with people nor having foods
but you would commit suicide if the plotter doesn't plot your work out

...construction workers are already working.

...You've lost your house key and u realized week later

...you sleep more than 16 hrs at weekends

...u dance madly at 3 am though u aren't drunk

...you note smt with yr drafting pen or yoken

... You are an expert and Photoshop, illustrator and auto cad
but u don't know how to use MS excel [TRUEEEE, I THINK]

...you've got 2 subjects / day but u got to study it whole day
[ YEAH, HATE IT WHEN SOME OF MY CERTAIN FRIENDS DONT UNDERSTAND THIS COURSE OF MINE]

...you spend more time in studio than in your own bed.

...your parents are complaining that you're not having enough fun.

...you only leave studio to buy supplies.

...you haven't taken a shower in a week.

...you see showering as a waste of time.
[NOT ME, BUT ONE OF MY STUDIOMATES! HAHA.mud's his name. haha MUD. eh, no wonder! JUST REALISED THIS.. LOL]

...you've ever dreamt about your models.

...upon hearing 'supermodel', you think of a nicely crafted-foam core model.

...your parents have more of a social life than you.

...your 14-year-old brother has more of a social life than you.

...you consider using broccoli for your models.

...you enjoy hanging out at 'Home and Garden Fair'.

...you know all the 24-hour food places in the area.

...your friends get more sleep in one night than you do in one week.

...the streetlights turn off.

..You consider 3AM an early night.

...when you are out at 3AM, and people knows where you're at.

...everything you eat comes in single serving baggies.

...the idea of a 24 hour 'Kinko's' make's perfect sense

...smoking sounds appealing.

...you're out on Friday nights in studio.

...the only building on campus with its lights on is your studios'.

...you say "It's only midnight- I have plenty of time to finish."

...you confuse sunrise with sunset.

...you ask what time it is, then ask "AM or PM?"

...you strangle your roommate because she said she stayed up late studying.[ YAHHH!!!!]

...your Friday night is 68 hours long.

...you slice your finger, and the first thing you think of is if you'll be able to finish your model.

...you understand why architects have glasses and white hair.
[ MY LECTURER, STILL YOUNG but bald alrd!.. tsk3]

...You call some great architects as if they are you friends.
err... Frank... Tadao.

...you know all of these are true, no exaggerations.

...you can listen to all your CD's in one night.

...certain songs remind you of studio.

...you change the style of music to country coz u r fed up with POP

...Sister's favorite brand names are Prada DNKY etc... But yours are
Mastex, Staedtler, pentel, rotring

...you dare not to have a gf/bf coz no one can accept for what u are

...you can conceptually compose the food on your plate.

...you think the 'Weekender' happens every weekend.

...upon hearing 'Weekends' you think of sleep.

...the 'Shop Cafe' closes when you arrive, and reopens before you leave studio.

...you have to wait for breakfast shops to open.

...you go to the food shop, and order the "usual", and they understand.

...you use architecture tools to eat.

...you only buy groceries once a month.

...you wake up to go to school and you're already there.

...you start wearing all black.

...you have no life, and admit it.[ TRUEEE]

...you start to critique a radio selection's selection of songs.

...you bring your friends to studio to keep you company.

...you refer to outside studio as the "Real World."

..."going out to eat" is at the 'Shop Cafe'.

...going on a vacation involves going to 'Flax' or 'Pearl'.

...you confuse today and tomorrow.

...you tell time by when other people leave studio.

...you can write a 6-page term paper by procrastinating.

...you hear "Didn't you wear that yesterday?' followed by "and the day before that?"

...you roommate files a Missing Person Report.

...you count the number of days (not hours) you've been awake.

...you think days are 48 hours long.

...you go to the store to buy a six-pack of 'Red Bull'.

..."Homecoming" happens once a term.

...on Halloween, you dress like your instructors.

...on Halloween you trick-or-treat in studio to get arch supplies or 'Red Bull.'

..."respect", "coolness', and "hatred" are all based on how much sleep you get, or lack of.

...you see your own picture on a milk carton.

...you start using words your instructor uses.

...your bed has collected a layer of dust on it.

...you contemplate suicide 3 times a day.

...you contemplate dropping your major 3 times a day.

...you have a tent pitched in studio, but still don't go to sleep.

...doing models all night long excites you.

...you know the people in the studio better then your roommates

...Drimmels are a lifelong investment, if you can keep the parts.

...Gesso is pointless.

...The roof, Atkinson Hall, at 4 AM -- nothing like it.

...X-acto knives can be dangerous... as we all know or will find out.

...Beer pyramids AND Red Bull pyramids are some of our late-night late projects.

...Elmer's glue doesn't dry quick -- not even close.

...They know the phrase "Always done, never done" all too well and wish the professors would stop saying it

...They can always have more construction lines.

...They know the number and price of their favorite item in the snack machine downstairs, as well as every other item and all the drinks in the other two machines.

...And if you have been drunk while in the studio working on a project, join the club.

...they believe they should be paid just for having the major

...you drink more in studio than you do when you're out

...you have sent messages on aim to another jackass architecture student in the same room as you are

...you think "X-Acto Blade Throwing" is a sport.

...you have 3 or more 'Mountain Dews' in one night

...you spend more time in studio than with your wife.

..."scoring" involves an X-Acto blade

...you don't find out who wins the Presidential Election until Thanksgiving Break, if you get one at all.

...a break consists of moving your car.

...you've memorized you favorite vending machine combination item (B6).

...you use your T-square or straight edge as a baseball bat.

....the day has 2 sunrises.

....you test which glue will cause your model to burn faster.

....when you tell people you major in "architorture"

...U can't draw without listening to music!

...when people tell you that they like walking around with you because you see things know one else does.

...when you don't understand how someone doesn't strategize their way through traffic (or everything else in life).

...when someone says "icon" and you think of Louis I. Kahn.

...when someone says "eye candy" and you think of gratuitous details on a building.

...when you use words like "gratuitous".

...when you have to use spellchecker to see if you spelled "gratuitous" right.

... When you're not sure what day of the week it is

... When you have slept straight through a day and into the next day after a final review

... When lack of sleep makes you feel and act as if you are high

... When any flat surface is seen as a place to take a nap
(underneath the tables in the computer room (that's where it is the warmest), in hallways, on drafting boards

... When a relationship with an upperclassman seems like a good idea because they might be able to help you on your project

... When a relationship with an underclassman seems like a good idea because their final review is before yours and therefore, they can help you produce once they are finished

... When the books that you read consist primarily of photographs and not so much of words

... When you have to ask your fellow architects to give you wake up calls

... When you have three or more alarm clocks in your room.

... When cutting yourself with an x-acto seems like a good idea because it will give you an excuse for not having finished your work

... When you go to studio and spend more time socializing than doing work

... When you have big enough balls to tell a critique that they are wrong

... When everyone in studio hates you because you are the one who plays their music too loudly

... When after playing your music too loudly the same people who hated you start to take interest in your music

... When you have developed an addiction to buying new albums, because you have gotten sick of all your old ones

... When trying to decide what album to play you find an album you haven't listened to a while and it ends up being the perfect choice.

... When professors for courses outside of the architecture school are lenient once they are aware you are an architecture student.

... When you tell someone in another school that you are architecture major and they automatically assume you have no social life

... When you have a non architect friend who wants to tag along to architecture parties because they know that architects have the best parties

... When you are the only sober person standing outside of the hot truck on a Friday/ Saturday night

... When you have a sign taped to your back that says do not disturb unless you are ordering food or handing out free blowjobs

... If it were possible to bartar sexual favors for production help, you would seriously consider pulling tricks

... You have given a final presentation with your fly open

... You try to do things to make your friend laugh while he is presenting

... You have layed flat out on the floor and gone to sleep during a review

... You have snored during a review

... When you skip classes because you have too much work to do

... When writing a paper seems impossible and completely foreign to you

... When you attempt to do a media project in lieu of a paper

... When you have an inexplicable mark running off your page because you fell asleep while drafting

... When you are able to fall asleep underneath a running shower head and you are completely sober

... When you wonder what it would be like to be in another major and the idea of going out three or more nights a week is unfathomable

... When you participate in a mad dash to the campus cafe at closing time for free coffee

.....you lose your eyesight and you gain backache and neck ache

...when people stop you in hallways and say "hey, I like your beard" and you realize that you haven't shaved in three projects

...when you start measuring all time segments in terms of "projects

...when you refer to your computer as your "significant other"

...when you have nicknames for all your tools

...when you talk to all your tools like they're "real people" and use their nicknames

...when taking "5" is going and making coffee, taking "a break" is running to the store to get more coffee beans and for every 6 hours of sleep you miss, you add a scoop to every pot of coffee you make

...when a triple shot espresso just doesn't have enough "kick"

...when you try to talk to another person and realize that you've
invented your own language and nobody else understands you

...when a 102 degree fever or strep throat is to you no excuse to miss a crit.

credits: my friend's friend's blog

my beloved girls, jiayou in school! i miss you all. =)

i become so fair since training stopped!! even saiful commented that im damn white now.
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