I suddenly feel like blogging. Though school has not been too hard on me, I still find myself feeling down recently. Or maybe that's the reason. It makes me miss everyone. Home, my parents, sisters, bro, my grandma, Heang and of course you guys. I realized so many things have changed in a year and a half's time. So many things became unfamiliar to me when I first came over last April. There are certain things I wish so much I can share but I don't know how to. And that just makes me miss everything and everyone even more.

Imagine the new people and new environment we all have to get used to, sometimes it changes too drastically I wonder what happened to the old familiar ones and I think about it sometimes and I get emo........ like this :(

Shir's online now and I quote her PM, it's not the time to feel this way. It applies to me too but I think there should never be a time to feel this way. Which kind of sucks.

I hope I can keep myself busy enough to stop thinking.

17 days more to start of Adivs

no fried food/no soft drinks. more self-trainings. GOOO!!!!!!

update!

I just got my internet today!!! Yay, but I think I survived pretty okay without it.

School's been great for me! Well at least up till now... actually i think time past really really fast since my school started. I've only got 4 days of school a week (i'm free on thursdays), 18 hours per week........ and i just spotted 2 really, really, really, pretty asian girls in my class. The randomness aside, i'm dead serious!

But it's funny cos now when i'm in school, i see it differently from last year. You know when you're in a different position you just kinda see things not like how you saw it before. Last year i was doing foundations and when i walked into Uni i don't see it like i do now. There's a different feel and aura to it, hahaha. But i'm just trying to enjoy school, the work and everything else. i know it's gonna be tiring, but it's been not too bad so far, so yeah... at least now i've got a better picture of what i'm in for a.k.a what i've gotten myself into. Haa.

By the way i haven't gotten a picture of ziyu's look-alike yet, but i told her about you and she wanted to see ur picture too! And I also know another girl who looks like Elaine (in band and from 4N class, youwen should know her).. so i always hang out with them and it's quite weird cos it feels like i know them but i don't...

So how's everyone? Update, yo! i want to keep going on and on about me haha but i'm quite sleepy. it's 2.22am and i've got class at 9 tomorrow!

why is holiday only one week...):

friday to sunday had hockey camp which was good. it wasnt as tough as i thought and i guess mental strength really works alot. i constantly told myself to give in my best during the camp and not to slack. i think i performed better than usual, which was good for me. friday had match against PJ at CCAB. drew 1-1. wasnt as terrible as the NJ match but wasnt exactly good too. thereafter had dinner at macs at serene centre then returned back to school.

was told to wake up at 7 on saturday. but apparently we all woke up at 5 cos...

ms tay came into our bunk at 5, along with 2 other teachers. on the lights and blew the whistle and showed us this piece of paper. i woke up immediately cos i couldnt sleep well the whole night. gathered at the track. saiful tested our reaction time. changed from pumping position to crunches position to jumping jack position. then ran 3.2/4.8? around the school. all these were done when we havent wash up, which means we havent brush our teeth.

after the run, got back to school and washed up. packed up for pitch training. then had breakfast which was nasi lemak and hot milo. had match review. watched the first half of the much dreaded NJ match. after which, gathered at foyer before heading to NTU. but found out that our cones were lost. made saiful pissed. started with trigger ball at NTU, then warm up and drills. the sun was damn hot everybody were dying. the nasi lemak made my stomach damn uneasy. lavenniah sprained her ankle during 1v1. went back to school for lunch at 2. had match review on second half of NJ match. then it started to rain. went to MPH to play captains ball with a rugby(?!) and some very funny game. there are 2 teams competing. each team is supposed to send their representative(s) to sit in front of the black cloth. when the black cloth is pulled down, the fastest to say the name of the one at the opposite team wins. as usual, being hockey people, we came up with all kind of damn funny variations. especially the guys. super hilarious. then had PT. 4 rounds around lane 7/8. intervals of 200m within 50s(?) for 6 sets. push up, crunches, leg raise, squats. almost couldnt make it at that part. then had pizza for dinner went to wash up thereafter. had movie screening Chak De India in the guys match review room. fell asleep a few times but the movie was overall great. everyone got high at the last part where India, being an underdog, got into the World Cup Finals against Australia. after the movie, had reflections. then a few of us went to have cup noodles. slept at 2 and woke up at 6 on sunday. had breakfast then headed to CCAB for training. couldnt process saiful's instructions fast enough cos i was damn tired. had debrief after training then stayed on to play with some of them. then junyang came so i played with him for awhile. before i got hit by azfar's deflection at the mouth. i was damn worried my tooth will drop out, luckily it didnt. but was bleeding damn badly and there were blood stains on my shirt. super scary experience. thank god there was zhao and azfar there or else i dont know what to do. thanks to the girls and junyang for helping me too. had lunch after bathing at adam road food centre. didnt feel like eating so only had ice kachang. headed home and slept immediately cos i was afraid my dad would see my injury. sad that camp ended on a bad note for me but was glad that camp made me learn a few things. like never to take things for granted, how to work better as a team, how to motivate myself etc. all in all, CAMP WAS GREAT. =D

went to mug at coffeebean on monday. wasnt exactly productive but did a bit of homework. half the time was messaging saiful with sophial and his sms-es are totally lame to the max.

tuesday had math lecture in school, which was totally boring and i ended up doing my chem tutorial. then headed to macs for breakfast and mugged. then had training which sucked cos we had 2.4km run. after that was too lethargic to to anything. reaction was damn slow. my body totally took over my mind. sun was damn freaking hot and i just cant wait for training to end. worse was, there was still the killer triangle and we ran the whole field this time. then did trigger ball. went to j8 for bubble tea after training.

wednesday mugged at coffeebean which was totally unproductive. tried to do chem tutorial. got stucked so shifted to gp. dont understand the passages so decided to nap for awhile. woke up, tried to study econs, got restless and ended stoning. then talked to the girls and went home. ?!?! i didnt do any work at all!!!

thursday had training at NYP. totally tiring. muscle ached. hot sun. ulcer cos of the injury was hurting very badly. couldnt do anything right. sucks to the core.

friday had SL. was ok except the kids can get quite irritating at times. met sis for lunch then went home to bathe and change before meeting junyang for mugging at coffeebean. as usual, i got restless cos my ulcer was hurting damn badly. i cant even move my mouth to talk!! arghhhh. then headed to PS to meet aslam, ziyu and youwen. showed them all my ulcer as meeting gift. and thing, according to ziyu, i should webcam with you to show you my ulcer too. haha! ate at astons then chilled at starbucks.

saturday had Junior World Cup (JWC) technical officials course at Delta. super confusing of what we are supposed to do. after which headed to cathay to mug at starbucks. quite productive. then headed home to meet my sis for dinner/supper at the coffeeshop downstairs. ate prata and roti john. talked quite a bit. (: did i mention shes going US in august? i think im going to miss her so much. ):

and today is the last day of holiday. oh my god. look at how i spent my holiday. totally no fun at all. and homework still not done. ahhhhh!! ok im going to start on my work now. ):

The thought of being a retail and hospitality designer is so nice. But is damn hard to get there.

The blocks just get tougher and i just get weirder. I am like getting more and more immune to all the work load. Every single time when lecturers or my director speak to us about general(as in self-discipline, attitude etc) stuff, they will never ever forget to tell us 'designers don't have a life.' I think is so annoying, that phrase irritates my ear. Sometimes i feel like screaming very loudly into their face ' i do have a life!!!' Why their way of 'motivating' student is so weird? We won't work harder because they say that right? If we do, is like making us even more no-life? Or we suppose to look at it this way, since we already don't have a life, so we should make the best out of it and work even harder? ( i think i can easily achieve another 5000 words if i want to list every single thing that i really want to complain)

The reason for all the nonsense blabbered above is because today is a very bad day. I woke up late, gobble down my breakfast, realise i forget to bring my handphone, missed two bus 72 because is damn packed, fall asleep on the bus, missed my stop, when i start doing my work in the lab, the computer restart on its own, when i doing my work, the programme hang and i didn't save my work, when i want to print my still-have-room-for improvement work, the plotting room got the whole course in the room, went for lecture feeling very dissapointed with myself, assignment brief to let us know more assignments awaiting to buried me alive, lecturer extended the submission time by 3 hours because everyone can't print on time, i waited for 4 hours to print my work, i am late for the extended submission timing, rush off thinking that i am late, took a cab down and realised actually we only need to reach by 8pm and we can actually take train. MY DAY IS SOOOOO EXCITING AND FUN.

Another reason for everything above, i need to rant if not i will explode.

I miss you all and i swear i hate to have different school holidays timing. Whats the fun to have holidays when nobody is having it with you other than your schoolmate that you see everyday (from 9am to 11pm when we chiong assignment)?

Blog people. i want to know whats going on in your life.

i want to sleep now cos im so tired my eyes can close anytime. and theres a match tomorrow and i should rest early cos my flu havent fully recovered. but i need to at least finish three quarter of my chem revision cos theres a test on thursday and i will be reaching home late tomorrow due to friendly. will probably be too tired to study later.

friendly tomorrow with only 11. no substitues. no goalie. but im sure we can do it cos WE WANT TO WIN! yes yes yes. we can totally forget about breathing. forget about being substituted. JUST RUN!!! i havent mentioned my team has lots of injuries recently. which is really bad cos Adivs is just a month away. 2 fractured hands, one with stitch on the head. and many with leg/ankle injuries. im really worried for Adivs yet excited for it. hockey camp this friday to sunday. totally cant wait for it even though there will be madness fitness trainings. but im sure ill have lots of fun with the girls. =D

yesterday ziyu messaged me. hahaha. totally random. sorry i was too tired my eyes were closing or else i could have messaged you longer. we got to meet up soon!

i really hope i wont have lemons throwing at me again cos ive had enough of it. but you know, sometimes when shit happens, you know who are the ones who will always be there for you. and im glad for that. (:

this week have been terrible. was sick and skipped school on monday. and so i missed my physics spa. and also my 2.4 today. madness coughing and running/blocked nose accompanied me every day. not that i like them. it sucks totally cos i cant concentrate when doing things. and my sexy voice made my friends laugh at me.

but i need to thank my friends for contributing packets of tissue to me. not in any order. THANK YOU JANE, SOPHIAL, XIN YI, CHERYL, JOYCE.

and today ended badly but nonetheless, i want to thank people who are always there for me like, JANE, JERYL, JIAXIN and all others who made my day better.

ok now i shall go study. IM SO DEAD.

i finish my last day of block already. next week will be the start of my new block. it is actually quite sad since everyone is having holidays already and next week the school probably will be empty and most canteen will be closed, is very sad to do work in school next month because the school will look deserted and we will need to do assignment plus we will have no food when we are hungry.

i don't know why but i miss you all. =(

*my stupid fingers are damn painful due to bending of wires (is my previous assignment) and there are blisters on my hand. =(

first day im home early this week. feels so good. im gonna take a nap soon.

monday had training till 7 plus then went to watch video. the j1s are starting training already which is good for them. we only had proper training around april last year!! tuesday went to thing's house to eat. then sent her off at the airport. reached home at 10 plus. the bus i took almost knocked a car! scary. yesterday will probably be the most happening day for this week.

had friendly at NTU with PJ, which only started at around 6.40. first 20 minutes was like shit. PJ scored the first goal within 5 minutes and all of us was shocked. the ball ROLLED in and the rest just stood there to watch. i was stunned. i didnt know what the defenders and goalie were doing. the next moment i know. the PJ girls was screaming. my heart sank. i was so sad i felt like i can cry any moment. the rest of the 20 minutes was equally bad. we didnt play well at all. probably because of the new formation which we didnt try before. break after 20 minutes was bad. saiful was frustrated. everyone else was. and im just pissed with myself.

second 20 minutes was much better. i could feel the passion and the drive of the team, wanting to win. good thing, we scored a goal within 5 minutes. we didnt get complacent. we continue to work harder. i could see it. the team's passion. and everyone was putting in their best. even the goalie, whos a j1 and didnt have proper goalie training before the match. she did a wonderful job. totally. we were all impressed. then came a short corner for PJ at the third 20 minutes. then i saw the ball flew. into the net. my heart sank once again. my tears was about to roll out. the PG girls was jumping and screaming again. then saiful said it wasnt counted cos the ball didnt hit the board. you dont know how relieved i felt.

this is properly one of the best match ive played. not in terms of how we played. but the spirit. the game was much faster than the other friendly. there were hardly any substituition. all was tired. but we continued to run after every ball. thats something really worth to be happy and proud of my team. i believe we can make it for Adivs if we continue to work hard. and Adivs is just a month away.

have been lagging very much behind for school work. gonna stay in school to mug tomorrow. and saturday and sunday to make up for it. damn. thats a really pathetic j2 life.

alright im going for a short nap. thing, send us the photos soon once youre free! and good luck for your first year at uni. (:

i am so irritated with myself! i lost my sister's new camera's battery!

my sister told me 'you are damn amazing! i don't know how on earth you can lose a battery?!"

the whole incident is damn weird. i brought the camera to school to take pictures of my work( i using clay to make lamp) so i can do my journal. After working on my clay work, i ask hongkwang (my classmate) to take pictures for me because my hand is damn dirty, then after taking photos, he put it into my bag for me and it was already 11pm, so i pack my bag and went home. After i reached home, i was damn freaking tired so i just went to bed after i bathe. The next morning i overslept, so i bathe, took my bag and run out of the house. The next day after i finish my morning class, i took my bag and went to have lunch. After lunch i went for afternoon class and i ask veron( my classmate) to help me take picture of my completed piece. But when she took my camera she ask me why it is so light and that is when i realise the battery is gone!

my bag was with me all the time if not i will ask my friends to help me look after my bag. CANNOT BE I DROP THE BATTERY RIGHT?! i put the camera into a leather case and i scared i dirty the leather case i still put it inside a pouch. SO how on earth can i drop it? CANNOT BE I NEVER BRING THE BATTERY OUT RIGHT? hongkwang help me take pictures the day before leh! IF i never bring out then how to take pictures?! SO where on earth can the battery be?

If someone stole it, why don't they steal the whole camera? I mean like you take the effort to take out from my bag then take it out from the pouch then pull out from the leather case and open the camera to steal the battery, why not just steal the camera and chances of you getting caught is lower what!

i am damn irritated. Can someone please solve the mystery of the missing camera battery?

p.s: the bloody battery cost 80-90 bucks and i need to get a new battery. =(

today was a very RAHHHH day. i bet cos my period's coming and feel very frustrated. especially when theres physics spa today!! suckssss. did NAPFA today. but didnt do 2.4. sucks sucks sucks. the rest of the team did well for 2.4! all A!! damn proud of them man. didnt have training after that. im so tired to study for maths test tomorrow.

anyway im supposed to start diet again today. but its so hard! i always eat dinner at 9 plus when theres training. how to not get fat?! ive decided not to eat rice on days without training. today i ate alot!! and im going to cut down on sweet drinks. ok i can do it!!!

ruihong's birthday

argh im so slack. supposed to be studying but i feel so tired despite the 3 hours nap in the afternoon.

went to crash the j1s orientation yesterday and i totally cant stand the councillors. they are like so rigid and inflexible. made the orientation so damn boring and most of the time we were just zi high-ing. but my junior class won best og!! now my throat hurts for screaming too much yesterday.

watched the louis koo show yesterday also. so not nice and fell asleep halfway. didnt get to eat prata/frog yesterday. ))): 3 months never eat frog already!!!!

gonna eat prata when thing comes back!!! (((: 1 more week! (((:

I am enjoying this block of my school. We are doing fun stuff, but maybe is not towards end of the blog yet. Thats why i am enjoying.

no photos of me. because nobody have clean hands when we are playing with clay. We goona make lamp with clay next week! morning class is digtal drafting, still quite fun at the moment. =)

I couldn't find my camera charger for almost a month now. Therefore I had to resort to using my lousy 2 and a half year-old, 2.0 mega pixel phone camera to take these pictures:



Okay my phone camera is only good for taking human pictures. Cos it's so blurry.



See? You can hardly even make out the pimple on my face.

By the way I bought a Motorola V8 Luxury. It's in gold and black and it looks DAMNNN nice. Except the battery life sucks.

Oh yeah Ziyu, I only stopping by for 4 days, I can't do 101 things! But it's okay, it's the company that counts hahahaha. (:

Okay the end.

CNY

hello! some events are long overdue.

i went to indonesia for two days, just one week before cny. my mum was being damn random. she just came home after work and told me "i book tickets to go indonesia to bai bai then we can go eat seafood and buy some new year goodies."












The temple is not completed yet, they are still getting donations for the temple. The volunteers of the temple are from singapore and they are a bunch of very nice and sincere volunteers. =) Anyway, no pictures of me during the trip because i look fat and most of the time i am the one taking photos.

This year nian san shi was quite different. I went to malaysia for reunion dinner! My uncle's house renovation is done! I love his place, is damn pretty! He is damn exaggeratting, his toilet got is as big as my room and have air-con. 0.o Actually i do wonder why toilet need air-con, but i still think is quite cool. His toilet got jacuzzi la! His house is like what i build for my characters in The Sims other than the fact that his is real and mine is not! =(

My uncle buy fireworks for cny. Seriously, can totally feel the cny atmosphere over there! Is damn cool, the whole street like filled with fireworks! Is like national day and fireworks festival! I didn't have the guts to light the fireworks, because i am suppose to climb up a ladder and light it then after i light it i have to run down from the ladder. I keep imagining my hands being blow up by the fireworks if my reaction is too slow. -__-
















My cousin (indian mix chinese) damn cute in the chinese costume!












We are waiting for them to light the fireworks. =)
















The video is with my brother.

Then our auntie told us we should go up to the second storey to view the fireworks. Is prettier up there because on the second storey, part of the ceiling is made of glass (or is it call sky window?) and is not so noisy plus there is air-con. =)

31st January - Steamboat dinner













I think we got the cutest friends!














Gaying around as usual!













Jeryl: If you see this picture, i am sorry and i still love you okie. =)


They are always damn random!
E: Where you buy your shirt?
A: Online
J: Eh. I want buy leh, but don't know can wear not. I want try.
A: Okie.
*start taking out shirt and trying the shirt*
E: HUH?! NOW?!
J: You don't mind right?
Z: Ya. Nvm.
A: How?
J: Just nice.
LOL! i swear our friends are damn cute!

HEY GIRLS! HAPPY CNY!! I LOVE YOU ALL! =)

LYTHING: START LISTING OUT THE 101 THINGS YOU WANT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE BACK IN SINGAPORE! =)

my typical day involves rushing to school just to make it on time for assembly. perspire like mad during assembly. lectures, breaks, tutorials. occasionally seeing hockers around, laugh laugh with them. go back class, laugh laugh with them. fall asleep during lectures and tutorials. after school, do work in canteen. stress go D hit balls. laugh laugh with hockers again, go back canteen do work. its almost like a routine already but im loving it. (:

but, it kind of sucks when i cant run. my shin have been giving me problems and even coach dont know whats wrong with it. was supposed to go see the doc today but decided to go next week instead cos my friends said polyclinic will be crowded today. i always feel like crap when i cant run with my team mates. i seriously hope nothing is serious or else i wont be able to take my napfa (not like i really want to).

had lou hei yesterday with hockers! very fun and cool though the guys were like shy(or maybe act shy). so we wished for top in Adivs and hopefully it will come true lah huh.




my coach was especially dashing on wednesday cos he went for an interview. so we forced him to take photo with us.


HOCKEY = LOVEEEEE

oh man im super full. had reunion dinner at grandma's place. had a little prayer before dinner to remember grandpa and to thank God for blessing our family so that we are able to have this reunion dinner. didnt have lou hei. ):

im super full but couldnt resist the prawn rolls so i immediately opened up when i reached home. and its half gone by now. did i mention i can have nothing for new year but i MUST have prawn rolls? my mum used to make prawn rolls when we were young. cos there was still the maid around to roll and fry and clear up. and homemade prawn rolls are the best man.

i think i will have problem fitting into the new year clothes tomorrow.

I'm here to update you guys on my life too. Shir has been updating us, I feel it's unfair to her lor hahah. So here goes.

My younger sis are back in Cambo for CNY and we've been helping my mum with CNY decoration. I made my mum bought mei hua/plumb blossom (not sure if that's what they're called) so it feels more CNY-ish. CNY without it is like Xmas without.... Santa Claus. Okay bad example. Anyway now my house is starting to turn red, got the atmosphere you know. Take photos show you guys soon.

So as I've told Shir Lyly & I have been singing karaoke with my mum nowadays. Yes my dears i do sing cos my mum sounds more horrible than me, so that's okay hahaha. It's quite fun lah except all the songs like so old and we always sing them and it annoys the shit out of Lyna.

Oh yeah I've booked my tickets already, i'm stopping by Sg on 21st, prob leaving for Sydney on 24, 25th. I'm thinking of extending the stay though. So please make time ah you guys. I know ziyu is very busy, don't stressed yourself out too much! Youwen, you also. Shir, you, I don't care lah, you always got time to talk crap with me online. Haha.

I've got to get used to the 3 months of holiday from this year on. My sis and I practically turn the whole Phnom Penh up-side-down and in-side-out, looking for places to shop. Apparently, not many. I hope we wont run out of places to.

Okay this post is long enough. Update again soon!

p/s shir i got ur mail, i'll help you look around.

cny celebration was boring and the school is weird to make us sit vertically as a class. my class lou hei and created a total mess cos quoted from someone, "shouldnt lao yu sheng be an upward process? how come it seems like an outward process to me." yeah you get the idea. we had the veg all over our hands and hair and my bag. tsktsktsk. the whole bench was filled with crackers, radish, plum sauce and whatever nots. the floor too. nonetheless it was quite nice but it was weird cos my PD tutor, who is also my GP teacher, said those blessings in english. -__-. but it was interesting cos first time got people say "top in ADIVS", "chelsea/arsenal/MAN U top the table" lol. cleared up after that and had GP lesson.

OH AND RUIHONG IS BACK!!! but poor him is still in pain and i think he cant carry heavy stuff with his left hand. and my PD tutor damn good. gave him chicken essence!! and my class leader went to buy a spongebob to welcome him back!!



went to bugis with jeryl and youwen after school. damn bloody frustrated cos ITS SO DAMN CROWDED AND WE CAN HARDLY MOVE AND WALK IN A STRAIGHT LINE IN BUGIS STREET. so many smokers and damn stuffy. and what makes me even mad-er was i saw the skirts that i bought yesterday for 15$ but i bought for 27$. #$%(&*^%$@. and when i was looking at the quality, thinking that maybe the ones i bought have better quality, some customer asked the shop owner how much are the skirts. and the shop owner said "十五. Far East 买三十" waliao my expression immediately changed and we walked away. i bought 2 somemore leh!!!!!!!!!!!!! wasted 20 bucks lah!!!! ok chill. nevermind. at least i paid for the air con and good service. !@#$%(%$

after braving through the crowd, jeryl got her back pack which i wanted too but due to many reasons, didnt get it in the end. went to J.CO to rest cos our legs were breaking.


and why is it so hard to find cheap and good tanks!!! >(

cny don't feel like cny at all. my family haven't even put up all the decorations and new year goodies are quite pathetic compared to the past few years.

stupid assignments are piling up like there is no tomorrow. i suspect i need to do assignments during cny if not i won't be able to finish it on time. i remember my director telling us that we don't have a life. but i didn't expect it to be so no life to the extent that my cny have to be spend like that. i havent even buy my cny clothes. probably i will just find something from my wardrobe that i havent wear before. i feel damn pathetic. =(